regarding me not getting into fac comm, i admit that i was disappointed and discouraged. but, there's a reason for everything. and i know that God has greater plans for me.(: ♥ clinging on to Jeramiah 29:11... 'for i know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. plans to prosper you, and not to harm you. plans to give you a hope and a future...' ♥
note that the word 'prosper' doesnt have to be in terms of money. truly, my life is prosperous already. the friendships and support that i've gained, the experience that i've been through, drawing my design again and again just because small changes had to be made... i really enjoyed the whole process. i chose to run for the publicity IC role, not because of portfolio, but i really meant every word i said during the interview. i want to serve the school using my talents, and i want to spread the excitement and enthusiasm and love that i have to the school through the medium of art. the role of publicity IC would certainly help me achieve my aim. but i guess, now that the door has been closed, i'll just have to look for other open doors.(: ♥ yes i'd be missing out in all the fun of going for faculty camp and OCIP at the end of the year...but i'm sure that life in Hwa Chong would still be a fulfilling one. cos there are so many other fun and happening stuff going on. it's up to me to seek for them.(: ♥
talking about portfolio. i really dont like unhealthy competitiveness. but it's inevitable i guess. some people run for fac comm/ council / CCA exco just because they want to build up their portfolio. self-centered-ness? but it defeats the whole purpose, doesnt it. when school work gets tough, one'd asks his/herself whether it's all worth it, to waste a huge fraction of one's time to do what one doesnt have passion for, when one has so many tests to prepare for. and then one'd get stressed up and feel that his or her life is screwed. little did he or she realise that everything started just cos of the desire to make his or her portfolio a little thicker. NOT WORTH IT. we shape our own lives with every decision we make. so dont make those which will make you regret.(: ♥
learnt alot from this experience. and nope, i'm not falling because of one failing attempt. i'm even stronger, ever more ready for what's ahead of me.(: ♥
sorry Ke Li for not being there to celebrate your birthday with you...wasnt in a good mood. didnt want to dampen the whole atmosphere...still, happy belated birthday!(: ♥
thank you Hua Peng and Zong Xian for making my day yesterday!(: ♥ really enjoyed those few hours at BPP! it was really fun eating ice kachang together hahaha! dont tell anyone what stupid thing i did okay! so embarrassing omgosh... luckily none of you saw it!xD xD had fun camwhoring too! :D :D ♥ and to Zong Xian, dont be sad that you're not in the fac comm also okay! you're still great!(: ♥
to all my bowling team mates, please please dont get the wrong idea that i didnt turn up for all the competitions because i'm angry that i didnt get into the team. yes i was quite discouraged that i didnt get in, but even if coach had chosen me that time, i would have rejected, cos i knew that i wasnt in tip-top condition. so yeah. i dont want to represent Hwa Chong when i'm not in my best. i would hate myself if i've deprived someone else who's better that me at the point of time just cos i want to get into the team. that's really not me. Hwa Chong has really made me grown alot.(: ♥ and the reason that i didnt turn up was cos i didnt want to distract yall by crying and all. and i guess i really needed a break to sort out thoughts. so yeah really sorry for not being there. but that doesnt mean that yall didnt have my support. yall were in my thoughts even when i was in school.(: ♥ looking forward to team chalet!(: ♥ I love Hwa Chong Institution College Section Bowling Team.(: ♥